Last year, I upgraded from Girlfriend to Wife. She knows the handbook better than me.
Then, this year, we were doing the update from mariage to family.
Two weeks ago, our dream imploded. Sorry if I kill the mood/thread, but I can't help it now
I'll be off to the child IC unit in some minutes, looking trough the glass at the only one left, reading stories to him, telling him about his brother and sister who died in our arms. Seeing him makes us happy, seeing him in pain cuts like a rusty knife in the heart.
We are unconsolable, so please do not try.
Regarding the GF problem - you need to look in the right places. It took both of us years to find each other, and we are happy we did find us. We understand each other without words. Such persons exist, go and search for them. Do not try to sit somewhere and wait.
And do not be afraid.